I'm a simple emigrant and I am ambivalent about holidays

Sometimes I have a desire to simply run away somewhere, so that there would be a legitimate reason not to participate in all this, and then, on the contrary, excitement overtakes me and I want to organize a celebration, gather friends, share my festive mood. In Frankfurt the Christmas spirit is already everywhere: a Christmas tree has long been set up, Christmas markets have stocked up on mulled wine and sausages, and stores are not keeping up with replenishing shelves with lights and all sorts of shiny trinkets. But this year, of course, everything is not as usual. Until the last moment there were doubts whether Christmas would take place in the country and city or whether it was too dangerous. Fortunately, the markets were allowed, but not without conditions. Firstly, the market itself is much smaller; if before it ran almost along the entire main street, now there are a few stalls on the main square and a few on the main pedestrian street. The worst thing is that the little shops are separated from each other and stand on tiny islands, each with its own entry rules: somewhere nothing is required, somewhere a test is enough, and somewhere you can enter only having a QR code. Personally I was also upset that the deposit for beautiful Christmas glasses now costs 3 euros, whereas before it was 0.5–1 euro and you could easily take the trophy home as a memory. In general, this excursion didn't really lift my festive mood; I'll need to go again. And you? Have you already caught the spirit of the New Year and Christmas? #holidays